When I wrote in that last post that I wanted to update my blogs more and remember why I keep them, I promptly had an ontological seizure. Why am I doing this? Why do I keep these blogs? Why are we here?
Having reminded myself, it feels like a good idea to record my answers for the next inevitable session of doubt.
I keep a blog about my greyhounds because they are my very best friends and they're freakin' adorable. They make my heart smile. They're my sunshine in a simple, selfless way that human beings can't manage. I realized that when I share them with the world, other people smile too. That's why I keep that blog: to share the happiness that dog bring me.
I keep the writing blog -- which I haven't really made known -- in a dismal effort to take my writing seriously. Honestly, it stills freaks me out to admit that yes, I string words together for fun and that yes, I would like to Be An Author, whatever that means. I need to work out my mental problems about that, still.
This blog here is ostensibly about living with a mental illness. Sometimes I get frustrated, because there are so many other things I'd like to write about, but I'm uncomfortable sharing and I want to keep the focus narrower. I'm trying to shed that and come to the understanding that I can write about parenting, for example, because my parenting is deeply affected by my twisted brain. Any topic I choose could be tied back into this. My worldview is focused through a unique lens. I need to relax and learn to share more of myself, but I've had a couple unhappy experiences with reactions to what I've written here that still upset me. I'm working on it.
Now, how long before I forget why I'm doing this again?
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I think you can offer insight on a lot of issues that other people might not consider. I vote for just writing what's on your mind at the moment. Sometimes we just need to give voice to those things that rattle around in our brains. :)
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